daily

from here on out i'm making it all count. i can't get back wasted time, but i can influence my future. good luck everybody!

made an editor, i don't have to type in raw html to make these posts anymore. i'm really thinking of all the cool ways i can design an interactive space. i made a music widget for the site. it plays my currently playing song. you might see some more hopefully soon. i wanna document the process of making all these cool gadgets and interfaces. see u soon.

i can post videos here now. how cool is that!

i feel as if i'm the kind of person that is a little blind to progress. every time i move forward, it just seems to serve as a new baseline. i know things are so much better than they were even just a few months ago but sometimes it just pales in comparison to me with how much further i have to go; every day feels like an uphill battle. i'm trying to remain patient; i understand that good things take time. in the meantime, i'm going to keep noting my ups and downs here and maybe one day i can look back at these words and be proud of where i'm at.

monday. most days have been bad days; this is one of them. the objective side of me realizes things could be worse, but the realistic side of me has been absolutely miserable. there are a few unexpected good days, but i feel they get largely overshadowed very quickly. however, i remain determined to flip the scale. might have to reevaluate.

it's a saturday. a lot of work to do, but i am entering the weekend with a sense of reassurance things can and will get better.

all i have to say.

saw a bengals game for the first time today, it was okay. other than that not much.

as i get older, i'm beginning to realize that i should be prioritizing my health first and foremost. i feel as if i've been running on empty for a little too long at this point, and realistically i'm going to have to scale back in some ways. but that's okay.

and an exam tomorrow, alongside an overarching feeling of discontentment. maybe it's just the moment, but i feel like i consistently forget what it's all about.

all i want to do is play valorant.

i've been thinking about what i want to say here. i don't want to necessarily sensationalize my life. i feel like the pressures of social presentation push people to only show what's good about their lives. i'm more so thinking of this place being an albeit short but accurate representation of my life. forget the glitz and glamour; some days will obviously be better than others. honestly, right now i feel like shit, but maybe i won't tomorrow.

summer classes over.

my day to day recorded on my little corner of the internet. i'm gonna write a 'what is this place?' article under archive at some point to kind of flesh out some ideas of what i want this digital corner to be. this, like any other page atm, is a wip, so keep that in mind.